Sonny Boy

Syempre bago matulog blog muna ako.. Hehehehe Dahil wala pa akong sariling PC sa bahay dumayo muna ako dito sa Blink netshop dito sa may Session Road. Gusto ko sanang magblog about something interesting, pero etong si "Kuya Sonny" (sya ang tagabantay ng shop) caught my attention. He is just jolly and nice.

Una ko syang nakita dito din sya shop. May kasama akong bilat (girl) nun. Actually kasama ko ulit sya ngayon. Hahaha. Yun na nga nakita namin ton si "Kuya Sonny" dito sa shop (paulit ulit much) nung pauwi na kami magbabayad na kasi kami nun, so tinanung namin sya kung magkanu lahat yung charge. Then he said "30 po!" Sabi ko naman sa kasama ko "O! Alam na! Bayad ka na teh!"

Biglang tumawa tong si Sonny Boy. Ang cute lang ng braces ni Koooyaaa.. Hahahahaha.. Sana BRACES na lang sya! LOL. Nandito na ulit ako sa netshop, para gumawa ng interesting na blog. Kaso tong si Kuya SOnny ang kulit. Parang ngayon lang kami nag usap eh kung makatawag ng mataba ako.. WAGAS!!

I swear! Ang gaan ng loob ko sa kanya. Kasalukuyan syang kumakain ng Bangus dito sa tabi. Oh di ba! Close agad. Na add ko na sya agad sa FB! Wahahaha.. Para paraan moments. LOL Parang I want to get to know him better. He also know that I am writing about him sa blog ko. Grabe severe ang tawa ko dito sa taong toh! Ambilis nyang makagood vibes. Wapak! Kuya SOnny you made my day!!!

Eto ang sinasabi nya sa akin habang ginagawa ko tong blog. "Gutom ka na noh? Gusto mo kumain?" Anu ako alagang isda o pusa o dog? Eto pa isa! Dumating ang truck ng basura habang bumubusina. Ang sabi ni Kuya eh "Anjan na SUNDO mo!" Grabe ka talaga kuya.. Kahit ganyan itsura mo, I might take the risk. Hindi po sya ang nasa litrato. Yan po ang lumabas sa google image nung sinearch ko ang "Sonny Boy."

Napost ko na tong nlog may hirit pa sya! Tuloy napa edit ako. Tinanung ko kung may 1 hour na kami (nga pala tong kasama kong bilat eh parang tood while watching Maria La Del Barrio on youtube. LOL ) sabi " Wala pa.. Kaw naman ang kuripot mo." So explain naman ako na kelangan ko pang matulog kasi may dance rehearsal pa ako. Ang sabi ba naman eh "Ikaw sumasayaw?" na may kasama pang sacastic face. Hahahahah.. Ikaw na ang GOOD VIBES SONNY BOY!

Dancing in Pain

I am a dancer! I love dancing! I started dancing when I was 7 years old. This is one thing I do best, and I had won some little prizes from little competitions. So what I'm saying really is that "Dancing is my Passion". It saved me from a lot of trouble. It has inspired me to be better and made me do things I never thought possible. It encouraged me to be brave. It also taught me how to follow rhythm and gracefully execute movements and expressions. This also goes with how I handle life's difficult situations. I emulate my dancing on how I reason and how I react to certain things.

I am currently working at a BPO organization here at Baguio city. This company offers a lot of activities to promote employee camaraderie. Because of these actitivities my colleagues decided to form a "Dance Crew" to have entertainment whenever needed. Oh! By the way, these colleagues of mine were my co-dancers way back college. So in short, we share same passion and love for dancing.

We have showcased different dances and dance routines on company events. This make me thinks that even while you are working, fun could still be present.

Dancing in Pain. Bakit nga ba eto ang title ko? This is because of some recent events. As stated on my previous blog, I was hospitalized. I really was sad by then because of recent life events, but one thing that made me regret for being sick is the "Inter- BPO Cheerdance Competition". Of course, I really wanted to be part of the routine. However, due to some absurd health conditions I may not be able to join. So the group started choreographing the routine. Dancer are all complete (which means that I really won't have a spot even if I am okay to dance).

Three days before the competition, I heard that 3 Dancers backed out from the crew. Although I am more than willing to showcase my talent I am hindered by my health condition. I am really frustrated.

Then, I asked for a sign if I can still dance. The sign was given and my heart felt joyous. So I approached the group and told them if I can join them. Dali dali naman silang nagsabi na "Kasali ka na kaya! Wala yang scolio-scoliosis mo na yan!" then they all laughed.

So eto na nga. Nagsimula na akong magcatch up with their routine. Nakuha ko naman agad yung steps, kasi nga yung iba eh excerpt from our previous dances. Pero nung nagqueue music na kami eh para akong batang nakatanga. Hindi ako nakadaloy sa flow of events. Tinry to ko naman na humabol sa pace nila pero ulit ulit pa rin akong nagkakamali. Tawa kami ng tawa kasi nga ang gulo gulo ko. Eh pasensya naman di ba, unang araw ko at ang daming kailangan i memorize at habulin. hay grabe tong experience ko na toh. Hindi ako sanay na ako yung humahabol sa routine. Usually kasi ako ang unang tinuturuan para magturo sa iba. But in this case eh baliktad. Culture shock talaga ang peg ko sa panahong eto.. Hahahaha.. Tawa man ako ng tawa pero nahihiya pa rin ako sa group kasi nga everytime na mag ulit eh dahil sa akin. Such a shame right! I know right! Hahahaha...

Anyhow, apart from my pain in not being able to catch the steps right away eh, yung binti ko masakit, yung shoulders ko din masakit.. Parang bang na-gang rape ang feeling. Gumising ako kanina dahill sa alarma clock ko, sabi ng utak ko sa akin eh "Hindi mo kayang tumayu!" Pumikit ulit ako at feeling ko eh hindi na ako mumulat muli kasi nga sobrang pagod ko. Biruin mo naman kasi mula alas tres ng madaling araw hanggang ala una ng umaga eh sumasayaw ako para makahabol. AKO NA!!! AKO NA TALAGA!!!! Hahahahaha..

But everytime umaray ako sa sakit ng katawan ko ngayon eh I smile. Because this pain is the pain of my passion for dancing! Keep dancing like there's no one watching. Motto ko yan! "Wah Pakels!" sabi nga din ng friend ko.

The competition will be this upcoming Saturday na! Pressure naman tong two days catching up ko! Goodluck sa akin! Wahahahaha..

Absenteeism

Absenteeism is a habitual pattern of absence from a duty or obligation. Traditionally, absenteeism has been viewed as an indicator of poor individual performance, as well as a breach of an implicit contract between employee and employer; it was seen as a management problem, and framed in economic or quasi-economic terms. More recent scholarship seeks to understand absenteeism as an indicator of psychological, medical, or social adjustment to work. (Thanks to Wikipedia)

Abesenteeism has always been an issue. Sa school man yan, sa trabaho o sa pagboto ng bagong mga officials ng bansa. Maski nga latest Supreme Court trial eh may mga umaabsent din. Anyways, I just had a talk with one of my manager about me being abset for one week from work. Ganito kasi ang nangyari kung bakit ako hindi nakapasok ng trabaho.

Namatay ang lolo ko, so after ng work week eh umuwi ako sa probinsya namin para makilamay. Ngunit pagbaba ko pa lang ng bus eh hindi na ako makahinga, at pagdating ko ng aming tahanan eh muntik akong matumba. So at first inignore ko muna (feeling ko kasi buntis ako, CHOS!) ngunit patuloy pa rin ang aking pagkahilo at hirap sa paghinga. Dumating ang tatay ko galing sa palengke, I told him na punta kami ng hospital para sana matignan ako. Ang tatay ko imbes na maconcern sa nararamdaman ko eh pinagalitan pa ako dahil daw uuwi na nga lang ako eh may sakit pa ako.

So syempre mainit na ulo naming dalawa, nung nasa tricycle na sya at ineexpect akong sumakay na, alam nyong ginawa ko? nag walk out ako at lumarga sa hospital na 1 hour away from our town. So pagdating ko nga hospital:

Sa Information:

Nurse: Anu po yun?
Ako: Magapapa-confine po.
Nurse: Sinu?
Ako: Ako po.
Nurse: Ngumiti (cute sya at sarcastic ang ngiti)
Ako: Ngumiti pabalik.
Nurse: Pa fill out po ng form at proceed po sa Minor OR.
Ako: Okay po. (habang kinikilig)

So chineck na nila ang vitals ko, tapos ECG tapos X-Ray. Then admitted na ako. After ko ma-admit my mom called from Malaysia. nagsumbong pala si Papa sa kanya. haha. Then I ask my mom to send papa to the hospital and bring some clothes.

Nakangiting dumating ang tatay ko kasama ang aking li'l brother.

Papa: Akala ko nasa ward ka.
Ako: Hindi ah kasama naman sa Health Card namin ang confinement eh.
Papa: Oh okay. Dapat pala T-Shirt dinala ko naka AC pala tong room.
Ako: Hahahahaha

So after several medication, dumating ang doctor. Ampogi nya!!!! Tapos ang diagnosis eh "Mild Scoliosis". Monday came and I got discharged. Diretso na sa lamay ng lolo ko. Ang daming tao nandun lahat ng sisters ni Mama except sya kasi nga hindi sya pweding umalis while working her Visa. So sige mingle mingle with relatives while watching lolo's wake. Nilibing si Lolo ng Wednesday ng umaga. Eto na ang complications...

Pagkatapos ng libing eh I received a text message from our POC asking why I did not call in. Sabi ko naman nagpaalam na kaya ako. Sabi nila eh hindi kaya. Naguluhan na ako at parang ayaw ko nang pumasok ulit ng trabaho.

So I chatted with my mom. I told her na I will be resigning na kasi tatanggalin din naman nila ako sa work.

Mama: bakit?
Ako: kasi nga daw hindi naaprove yung leaves ko
Mama: Akala ko ba approved na?
Ako: Hindi nga daw.
Mama: Anak hintayin mo na lang nan tanggalin ka nila kesa ikaw ang umalis. Kasi sabi sa Feng Shui malas daw ang mag change ng work for this year para sa Zodiac mo.
Ako: Wow! Feng Shui talaga? hahaha
Mama: Nama!

So I finally got back to work. I was handed yesterday a written warning about my violations. I signed it and bounced it back to my POC. Today my Manager talked to me about my comment on the written warning. She said that I am letting my emotions get into me too much. Then I realized na tama nga sya. I told her na I need to work on that. So she smiled and said sayang talaga you're a potential pa naman. Work on that and have this warning slide back. Then I smiled and nodded.

Lesson, try not to let your emotions get into you so much and attend to your responsibilities no matter how crucial the situation is. Grabe huh ang daming moral ng araw na toh. Whoah, it's not everyday that I get all these feedback and realizeation. I love this day!

Mystery Someone

Most of the time I am alone. I enjoy the company of others and pretty much I'm also sociable. But most of the times I rather be alone and think of things on my own. Maybe it's just my persnality and there are also those cases that I prefer doing things alone.

Sometime, I go to the movie house alone. I eat at a restaurant alone. I go to church alone. Maybe I'm an intorvert? Or maybe I am just fond of doing things on my own. I also have many friends and acquaintances. But only few of them I trust. I may have got some trust issues from my childhood (childhood trauma siguro?). My childhood will be the next topic on my blog.

Yesterday, I was walking alone (again) at Session Road after long hours of taking calls. This made me relax a bit, and made me wander how nice it will be to have someone to be with you on these instances. Sayang masyado kasing closed yung mind and heart ko lately into entering a relationship or even mingling with others. I really need to work on things and my personality as well.

Minsan kasi feeling ko wala na talagang taong makakaintindi sa akin. Yung feeling na kinaawaan mo masyado ang sarili mo. Self pity has been an issue also, but I am working on having that gone. Hindi ko sinisisi ang ibang tao sa nararamdaman ko kasi nga naman eh choice ko na pumasok sa mga sitwasyong ganun (again another blog topic).

Masaya naman na ako ngayon. Mending a broken heart ang drama ko.Hahahaha. I must say that I have learned a lot and this experience is treasured. Moving forward, I promise to be more careful with things involving my emotions. Mahirap masaktan, lalo na kung nagmamahal ka ng lubos at wagas. Pero "If it's not meant to be, it won't really work". Dadarating din ang taong magbibigay ng panibagong misteryo at kilig sa buhay ko. I just really hope that he will be around SOON!

Ang Puso ko.

Now since closed ang session at maraming tao sa labas ng apartment ko, mag uupdate muna ako ng blog ko.

Guys, sobrang tagal ng nung una akong nagblog. Magkukwento muna ako ng mga EXPERIENCES ko about love.

Hanggang ngayon naiisip ko pa din ang hirap at hinagpis na nadama ko nung tinurn down mo ako. Heto ako ngayon pinipilit bumangon sa isang masalimuot na nakaraan. Isa ka sa mga taong lubos kong minahal ngunit hindi nanaman nasuklian. Lagi kong tinatanung ang sarili ko kung anung mali sa akin. Pero wala talaga akong makita (wow conceited ang peg ng lola mo). Lagi kitang naiisip, lagi kitang gustong kasama ngunit hindi pwedi, kasi nga sabi mo sa akin eh hindi ako partner material at masyado akong bata (age doesn't matter pala huh?!).

Sobra sobrang heart ache ang inabot ko sayu. Pero sabi mo nga sa akin eh darating ang araw tatawanan ko lang din tong lahat (grabe abisuhan mo talaga akong tawanan ko nararamdaman ko sayu di ba?). Well anyways, mukhang yung panahon na binanggit mo sa akin dumating na.

Hindi na kita masyadong naiisip. Hindi na rin kita gaanong hinahanap. Mahal pa rin kita hindi magbabago yun, pero ang mahalaga sa akin ngayon ay ang pansarili kong kaligayahan (conceited much).

Tama na nga yang Heart Ache portion na yan!

Eto na lang! Action plan ko para magkalovelife:

1. Lumandi.
2. Kumerengkeng
3. Pumampam
4. Lumandi to the highest level.

Ewan ko lang kung paano ko gagawin yan mga yan. (Pavirgin much). Hindi pa rin ako inaantok. Waahhh...

Sa mga bloggers jan, anu sa tingin nyo ang dapat gawin ng isang tulad ko para magkalovelife?

Let me tell you something about myself muna bago kayu mag-abiso.

Ako po ay 21 years olad na iisa pa lang ang aking naging jowa, at ako po ay napakapihikang nilalang. Hindi po ako tumitingin sa itsura ng tao. I go for the personality. Naniniwala kasi ako na hindi naman itsura ang pakikisamahan mo kung di yung ugali. Pero halos lahat ng hindi gaanong gwapong lalaking nagustuhan ko eh ginusto ako. Ang labas eh mas choosy pa sila sa akin. Hahahaha.. O yan huh! Payu na mga kapatid.