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I am really hurt with what is happening around me. This is a very sudden change in my life. I hope it is for the better. Trying to be strong.

ONE LOVE and Mister J!

Well, as of now eh wala talaga akong mahita sa creative juice ko kaya hindi ako nag uupdate ng blog ko. Pero nang dahil sa tag ng isang friend kong si Mark Joe (thelastinnocentman.blogspot.com) na may instant promotion sa blog na to. Hahahah.. Oh nang dahil nga sa kanyang tag eh eto ako ngayon gumagawa ng blog about his questions.

Question and Answer ang peg nya kaya sige patulan na. Hahaha. At ang background song sa netshop to ay "Highway to HELL" What the heck???? LOL.. I'm on a highway to hell.. Yeah! Peg ko ang tugtug.. LOL

Magkukwento muna ako bago ako sumagot sa tanung mo. As my title goes, conceited ang blog na toh. About sa akin lahat.. Ako na! LOL.

Simulan ang kwento.

May kinalaman eto dun sa Dancing in Pain ko na blog. Remember nung pinilit kong sumali sa Cheerdance ekbalo ng aming companya. Dun nagsimula etong lahat. Sumali kasi ako dahil may bet akong lulur chips na kasali din ang name nya ay Charleston! Name pa lang lalaking lalaki na! Oo straight sya, pero kiber! Magalalandi ako. Yun na.. Hahahaha..

SO habang nag prapractice kami may napansin ako sa isang kong kasma. Medyo pa girl tong si bilat. Eh normally naman becking becky si atchi. At na confirm ko na pati sya pala eh bet nya etong si #ONELOVE. SO ayun umamin din si atchi sa akin na bet nga nya. Affirmative! So ang laro eh makascore ng pasimple sa kanya.

Ayun si atchi nagpapansin, sayaw ng sayaw. Medyo Napansin naman sya. Pero ako kinabog ko si atchi dahil sya ang lumapit at nakiinum sa baso ko.. Nakita ko ni atchi, nanggagalaiti si atchi.. 1 point na lahat!

Sumunod na eksena, may nagdala ng silvanas sa rehearsal area. So since close kami nung tao, binigyan nya ako ng isa. At alam nyo ginawa ko? Nilapitan ko si ONE LOVE at sinubuan....
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Ng Silvanas of course. Napansin eto ni Atchi. At lumapit at sinabing "IKAW na!" Oo ako na nga. Hahahahaha.


Fast forward..

Tapos na ang competition ng Cheerdance Keme ng companya. Time to go ika nga. Inimbita ako ni ONE LOVE sa house nila at nag inuman. Pero walang nangyari panu naman kasi may jowa pala sya.. SO mejo jealousy mode ako.. Hahahaha.. Bakit nga ba one love tawag ko sa kanya.. Kasi yung tatto nya sa arms eh one love nakalagay.. TAPOS!


PRESENTING: Mister J. Kasama ko din sya sa Cheerdance keme. Isa syang silent type na tao. Tahimik pero cute naman in fairness. Nilalandi ko sya ng pahapyaw during rehearsal kasi nga ang concentration eh kay ONE LOVE. Etong si Mister J eh gumaganti sa lahat ng banat at mejo touchy touchy si kuya. Ako naman sige lang ng sige. Kinikilig a bit but I wish si ONE LOVE na lang yun. Tapos biglang one time lumindat sya sa akin at nag smile. So speechless ako. Hindi ako nakareact. Waaaahh.. Mukhang may gusto sya sa akin.. LOL

Kahapon! Lunes, fresh pa lahat ng pangyayari. Magka email ang group about what happen on the competition. SO si Mister J hindi gaanong nagrereply kasi nga dedicated agent sya.. LOL..

I have decided  to PM him. Nagulat ako nagreply agad. Ayun mejo mejo nacoconfirm ko na sya ay may gusto talaga. Then our conversation is filled with flowery words about each other. Nariyan pa yang napakwento sya about himself. OH close na agad ang peg. Kinikilig pa din ako hanggang ngayon. Hahaha

Eto last kung email sa kanya bago umalis ng opisina. Sabi ko" Simula ngayon Baby na kita, wala ka nang magagawa,." Secret lang natin wag ka mag alala.. hahaha..

Since out na ako sa opisina, sinadya ko naman sya sa station nya. Kinalabit ko sa batok as I always do. bigla ba namang hinawakan ang kamay ko at nag apologize for not replying right away. Ang lola nyo kulang na lang mag faint! WAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!

Sana lang talaga tuloy tuloy na toh.. Hihihihihi

Eto na ang Q&A portion:

11 QUESTIONS FOR MY TAGGED FRIENDS


Please enumerate the 204 sovereign states in the world and their capital cities. Joke lang, ang tanong eh How are you?

Keri naman ako medyo masaya naman. Simula nung umalis ka mark Joe! Lol

Are you still a virgin?

Oh YES! Sa bababe nga lang! LOL..

Do you believe in reincarnation?

Sure do! Feeling ko eh isa akong dyosa dati na nagkatawang lupa na!

What is the essence of being gay?

Being Happy! Being yourself no matter how hard it is to live in this world. Ipakita mo kung sinu ka talaga. Wala na yang takot takot. malapit na end of the world according to Mayan Calendar! LOL

If you could become an animal for 1 day, What animal would you be? Why?

Bird! I really wan to fly! Serious to! I want to see the world in a Bird's eye view!

Where is the most beautiful place in the Philippines?

Sa Baguio kasi malamig at mababait ang tao. Pero okay din naman sa kahit saan dito wag lang dun sa lugar na marahas.. Hahahaha

How many friends do you have in facebook?

About 699 round it up, marami apa akong hindi naadd na friends jan... hahahaha

Which would you rather have, beauty or brains? Explain.

Brains and good personality. maganda ka nga wala ka namang alam, wala ka din pupuntahan kundi sa clubhouse bagsak mo jan. Hindi ko dinidescrimnate ang mga pokpok ah.. Basta mas maganda pa din yung may knowledge ka at may manners. Yun ang point of view ko.

Fight or flight? Bawal ang It depends.

Flight! I want to go abroad! LOL.. HIndi ko man naintindihan to.. hahahaha

Kung kasali ka sa Survivor Philippines, ano yung 2 essential things na dadalhin mo?

Mahirap to ah..... Nanay at tatay ko.. Hahahaha.. Family oriented much!

Aside from English and Filipino, do you speak any other languages? Please enumerate if there are any.


Wala na! Dialects lang alam ko! Hahahaha.. To clarify hindi ako linguist.. hahahaha




O yan huh.. Nasagot ko na lahat.. 

Stranger Danger

After I have posted "Sonny Boy" I went home for tulog purposes. Eh di syempre dahil nga ang out ko eh 3 AM in the morning, malamang sa malamang nyan na madaling araw pa din nun.

 

So while  I was walking going home, tumigil ako saglit at nagtweet na matutulog na ako. Nasa harap ako ng Hotel 45 kasi nga walang signal dun sa apartment namin. I was somking while tweeting. Then all of a sudden came a stranger with this line on hand "Are we GOOD?" So napatingin ako at napatanga. Medyo kinabahan ako sa kanya, but he asked me another question sabi eh "should we smoke somewhere else?" 

 

Eto na, medyo nagsink in sa akin na madaling araw pa lang nun mgapanahong yun. So naisip ko na baka he taught that I am some kind of a "Call Boy". Indeed hindi sya nagkamali. Call boy nga ako, pero I am an expert in taking calls not that type of call boy you think. So when I got myself composed again, sabi ko sa kanya "I'm sorry, I guess you are supposed to be meeting someone here and you have mistaken me to be that person." Well, napaka-mouthful lang ng ibinato kong linya sa kanya. Hahahaha

 

Ang banat nya pabalik eh "No. I am not meeting anyone here." Then I told him bluntly na "Sorry I am BUSY." Tapos nagtanung nanaman sya " why are you busy?" (kulit much? LOL)

 

Nagwalk out na ako. Tapos sa awa naman ng dyos eh hindi ako sinundan. I swear those minutes are the scariest I had in years.

 

Tapos after I slept, diretso na ako ng dance rehearsal namin. Biglang akong tinanung kung kamusta naman daw ang "Stranger in the night" ng co-dancer ko. Tapos yun kinwento ko. Nakalimutan ko tinweet ko pa pala bago ako matulog. Hahaha

Sonny Boy

Syempre bago matulog blog muna ako.. Hehehehe Dahil wala pa akong sariling PC sa bahay dumayo muna ako dito sa Blink netshop dito sa may Session Road. Gusto ko sanang magblog about something interesting, pero etong si "Kuya Sonny" (sya ang tagabantay ng shop) caught my attention. He is just jolly and nice.

Una ko syang nakita dito din sya shop. May kasama akong bilat (girl) nun. Actually kasama ko ulit sya ngayon. Hahaha. Yun na nga nakita namin ton si "Kuya Sonny" dito sa shop (paulit ulit much) nung pauwi na kami magbabayad na kasi kami nun, so tinanung namin sya kung magkanu lahat yung charge. Then he said "30 po!" Sabi ko naman sa kasama ko "O! Alam na! Bayad ka na teh!"

Biglang tumawa tong si Sonny Boy. Ang cute lang ng braces ni Koooyaaa.. Hahahahaha.. Sana BRACES na lang sya! LOL. Nandito na ulit ako sa netshop, para gumawa ng interesting na blog. Kaso tong si Kuya SOnny ang kulit. Parang ngayon lang kami nag usap eh kung makatawag ng mataba ako.. WAGAS!!

I swear! Ang gaan ng loob ko sa kanya. Kasalukuyan syang kumakain ng Bangus dito sa tabi. Oh di ba! Close agad. Na add ko na sya agad sa FB! Wahahaha.. Para paraan moments. LOL Parang I want to get to know him better. He also know that I am writing about him sa blog ko. Grabe severe ang tawa ko dito sa taong toh! Ambilis nyang makagood vibes. Wapak! Kuya SOnny you made my day!!!

Eto ang sinasabi nya sa akin habang ginagawa ko tong blog. "Gutom ka na noh? Gusto mo kumain?" Anu ako alagang isda o pusa o dog? Eto pa isa! Dumating ang truck ng basura habang bumubusina. Ang sabi ni Kuya eh "Anjan na SUNDO mo!" Grabe ka talaga kuya.. Kahit ganyan itsura mo, I might take the risk. Hindi po sya ang nasa litrato. Yan po ang lumabas sa google image nung sinearch ko ang "Sonny Boy."

Napost ko na tong nlog may hirit pa sya! Tuloy napa edit ako. Tinanung ko kung may 1 hour na kami (nga pala tong kasama kong bilat eh parang tood while watching Maria La Del Barrio on youtube. LOL ) sabi " Wala pa.. Kaw naman ang kuripot mo." So explain naman ako na kelangan ko pang matulog kasi may dance rehearsal pa ako. Ang sabi ba naman eh "Ikaw sumasayaw?" na may kasama pang sacastic face. Hahahahah.. Ikaw na ang GOOD VIBES SONNY BOY!

Dancing in Pain

I am a dancer! I love dancing! I started dancing when I was 7 years old. This is one thing I do best, and I had won some little prizes from little competitions. So what I'm saying really is that "Dancing is my Passion". It saved me from a lot of trouble. It has inspired me to be better and made me do things I never thought possible. It encouraged me to be brave. It also taught me how to follow rhythm and gracefully execute movements and expressions. This also goes with how I handle life's difficult situations. I emulate my dancing on how I reason and how I react to certain things.

I am currently working at a BPO organization here at Baguio city. This company offers a lot of activities to promote employee camaraderie. Because of these actitivities my colleagues decided to form a "Dance Crew" to have entertainment whenever needed. Oh! By the way, these colleagues of mine were my co-dancers way back college. So in short, we share same passion and love for dancing.

We have showcased different dances and dance routines on company events. This make me thinks that even while you are working, fun could still be present.

Dancing in Pain. Bakit nga ba eto ang title ko? This is because of some recent events. As stated on my previous blog, I was hospitalized. I really was sad by then because of recent life events, but one thing that made me regret for being sick is the "Inter- BPO Cheerdance Competition". Of course, I really wanted to be part of the routine. However, due to some absurd health conditions I may not be able to join. So the group started choreographing the routine. Dancer are all complete (which means that I really won't have a spot even if I am okay to dance).

Three days before the competition, I heard that 3 Dancers backed out from the crew. Although I am more than willing to showcase my talent I am hindered by my health condition. I am really frustrated.

Then, I asked for a sign if I can still dance. The sign was given and my heart felt joyous. So I approached the group and told them if I can join them. Dali dali naman silang nagsabi na "Kasali ka na kaya! Wala yang scolio-scoliosis mo na yan!" then they all laughed.

So eto na nga. Nagsimula na akong magcatch up with their routine. Nakuha ko naman agad yung steps, kasi nga yung iba eh excerpt from our previous dances. Pero nung nagqueue music na kami eh para akong batang nakatanga. Hindi ako nakadaloy sa flow of events. Tinry to ko naman na humabol sa pace nila pero ulit ulit pa rin akong nagkakamali. Tawa kami ng tawa kasi nga ang gulo gulo ko. Eh pasensya naman di ba, unang araw ko at ang daming kailangan i memorize at habulin. hay grabe tong experience ko na toh. Hindi ako sanay na ako yung humahabol sa routine. Usually kasi ako ang unang tinuturuan para magturo sa iba. But in this case eh baliktad. Culture shock talaga ang peg ko sa panahong eto.. Hahahaha.. Tawa man ako ng tawa pero nahihiya pa rin ako sa group kasi nga everytime na mag ulit eh dahil sa akin. Such a shame right! I know right! Hahahaha...

Anyhow, apart from my pain in not being able to catch the steps right away eh, yung binti ko masakit, yung shoulders ko din masakit.. Parang bang na-gang rape ang feeling. Gumising ako kanina dahill sa alarma clock ko, sabi ng utak ko sa akin eh "Hindi mo kayang tumayu!" Pumikit ulit ako at feeling ko eh hindi na ako mumulat muli kasi nga sobrang pagod ko. Biruin mo naman kasi mula alas tres ng madaling araw hanggang ala una ng umaga eh sumasayaw ako para makahabol. AKO NA!!! AKO NA TALAGA!!!! Hahahahaha..

But everytime umaray ako sa sakit ng katawan ko ngayon eh I smile. Because this pain is the pain of my passion for dancing! Keep dancing like there's no one watching. Motto ko yan! "Wah Pakels!" sabi nga din ng friend ko.

The competition will be this upcoming Saturday na! Pressure naman tong two days catching up ko! Goodluck sa akin! Wahahahaha..

Absenteeism

Absenteeism is a habitual pattern of absence from a duty or obligation. Traditionally, absenteeism has been viewed as an indicator of poor individual performance, as well as a breach of an implicit contract between employee and employer; it was seen as a management problem, and framed in economic or quasi-economic terms. More recent scholarship seeks to understand absenteeism as an indicator of psychological, medical, or social adjustment to work. (Thanks to Wikipedia)

Abesenteeism has always been an issue. Sa school man yan, sa trabaho o sa pagboto ng bagong mga officials ng bansa. Maski nga latest Supreme Court trial eh may mga umaabsent din. Anyways, I just had a talk with one of my manager about me being abset for one week from work. Ganito kasi ang nangyari kung bakit ako hindi nakapasok ng trabaho.

Namatay ang lolo ko, so after ng work week eh umuwi ako sa probinsya namin para makilamay. Ngunit pagbaba ko pa lang ng bus eh hindi na ako makahinga, at pagdating ko ng aming tahanan eh muntik akong matumba. So at first inignore ko muna (feeling ko kasi buntis ako, CHOS!) ngunit patuloy pa rin ang aking pagkahilo at hirap sa paghinga. Dumating ang tatay ko galing sa palengke, I told him na punta kami ng hospital para sana matignan ako. Ang tatay ko imbes na maconcern sa nararamdaman ko eh pinagalitan pa ako dahil daw uuwi na nga lang ako eh may sakit pa ako.

So syempre mainit na ulo naming dalawa, nung nasa tricycle na sya at ineexpect akong sumakay na, alam nyong ginawa ko? nag walk out ako at lumarga sa hospital na 1 hour away from our town. So pagdating ko nga hospital:

Sa Information:

Nurse: Anu po yun?
Ako: Magapapa-confine po.
Nurse: Sinu?
Ako: Ako po.
Nurse: Ngumiti (cute sya at sarcastic ang ngiti)
Ako: Ngumiti pabalik.
Nurse: Pa fill out po ng form at proceed po sa Minor OR.
Ako: Okay po. (habang kinikilig)

So chineck na nila ang vitals ko, tapos ECG tapos X-Ray. Then admitted na ako. After ko ma-admit my mom called from Malaysia. nagsumbong pala si Papa sa kanya. haha. Then I ask my mom to send papa to the hospital and bring some clothes.

Nakangiting dumating ang tatay ko kasama ang aking li'l brother.

Papa: Akala ko nasa ward ka.
Ako: Hindi ah kasama naman sa Health Card namin ang confinement eh.
Papa: Oh okay. Dapat pala T-Shirt dinala ko naka AC pala tong room.
Ako: Hahahahaha

So after several medication, dumating ang doctor. Ampogi nya!!!! Tapos ang diagnosis eh "Mild Scoliosis". Monday came and I got discharged. Diretso na sa lamay ng lolo ko. Ang daming tao nandun lahat ng sisters ni Mama except sya kasi nga hindi sya pweding umalis while working her Visa. So sige mingle mingle with relatives while watching lolo's wake. Nilibing si Lolo ng Wednesday ng umaga. Eto na ang complications...

Pagkatapos ng libing eh I received a text message from our POC asking why I did not call in. Sabi ko naman nagpaalam na kaya ako. Sabi nila eh hindi kaya. Naguluhan na ako at parang ayaw ko nang pumasok ulit ng trabaho.

So I chatted with my mom. I told her na I will be resigning na kasi tatanggalin din naman nila ako sa work.

Mama: bakit?
Ako: kasi nga daw hindi naaprove yung leaves ko
Mama: Akala ko ba approved na?
Ako: Hindi nga daw.
Mama: Anak hintayin mo na lang nan tanggalin ka nila kesa ikaw ang umalis. Kasi sabi sa Feng Shui malas daw ang mag change ng work for this year para sa Zodiac mo.
Ako: Wow! Feng Shui talaga? hahaha
Mama: Nama!

So I finally got back to work. I was handed yesterday a written warning about my violations. I signed it and bounced it back to my POC. Today my Manager talked to me about my comment on the written warning. She said that I am letting my emotions get into me too much. Then I realized na tama nga sya. I told her na I need to work on that. So she smiled and said sayang talaga you're a potential pa naman. Work on that and have this warning slide back. Then I smiled and nodded.

Lesson, try not to let your emotions get into you so much and attend to your responsibilities no matter how crucial the situation is. Grabe huh ang daming moral ng araw na toh. Whoah, it's not everyday that I get all these feedback and realizeation. I love this day!

Mystery Someone

Most of the time I am alone. I enjoy the company of others and pretty much I'm also sociable. But most of the times I rather be alone and think of things on my own. Maybe it's just my persnality and there are also those cases that I prefer doing things alone.

Sometime, I go to the movie house alone. I eat at a restaurant alone. I go to church alone. Maybe I'm an intorvert? Or maybe I am just fond of doing things on my own. I also have many friends and acquaintances. But only few of them I trust. I may have got some trust issues from my childhood (childhood trauma siguro?). My childhood will be the next topic on my blog.

Yesterday, I was walking alone (again) at Session Road after long hours of taking calls. This made me relax a bit, and made me wander how nice it will be to have someone to be with you on these instances. Sayang masyado kasing closed yung mind and heart ko lately into entering a relationship or even mingling with others. I really need to work on things and my personality as well.

Minsan kasi feeling ko wala na talagang taong makakaintindi sa akin. Yung feeling na kinaawaan mo masyado ang sarili mo. Self pity has been an issue also, but I am working on having that gone. Hindi ko sinisisi ang ibang tao sa nararamdaman ko kasi nga naman eh choice ko na pumasok sa mga sitwasyong ganun (again another blog topic).

Masaya naman na ako ngayon. Mending a broken heart ang drama ko.Hahahaha. I must say that I have learned a lot and this experience is treasured. Moving forward, I promise to be more careful with things involving my emotions. Mahirap masaktan, lalo na kung nagmamahal ka ng lubos at wagas. Pero "If it's not meant to be, it won't really work". Dadarating din ang taong magbibigay ng panibagong misteryo at kilig sa buhay ko. I just really hope that he will be around SOON!